urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom forfeit_phantom forfeit_phantom 2009-01-08T19:57:22Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:30016 2009-01-08T19:57:22Z 2009-01-08T19:57:22Z So I am a boyfriend who is an exboyfriend only not really = S urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:29716 2008-11-14T05:48:51Z 2008-11-14T05:48:51Z <p><br />I think I&nbsp;am going to pull an Amanda and Michelle and do an update/post in point form. <br /><br />1) My job is stupid and I do not make enough money, I&nbsp;want to move out with Jonathan.<br />2)I&nbsp;have been in an awkward state and havent been worrying too much about anything (which is weird for me)<br />3) I miss friends . . . =(<br />4)I&nbsp;am still not sure what to do with my life. Nothing is seeming enticing.<br />5)I love Jonathan<br />6)Grr I dont know.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:29517 2008-09-09T03:02:33Z 2008-09-09T03:02:33Z <ul><li>I&nbsp;am Ryan and I&nbsp;have come to terms with that is who I will always be.</li><li>School makes me sad because I&nbsp;want to go back but I&nbsp;dont know what I&nbsp;want to do.</li><li>I&nbsp;like to write poetry. I&nbsp;hope one day that will come in handy.</li><li>I sometimes wish the apacolypse would just happen so that I wouldn't need to worry about much.</li><li>I have some issues with multiple people in my life.</li><li>I&nbsp;lack a sense of belonging.</li><li>I am saddened by the fact that my circle of friends is slowly falling apart.</li><li>I&nbsp;really like music and wish I&nbsp;could sing better.</li><li>I&nbsp;am not a fan of body hair.</li><li>I work at Sobeys and need to get out of there before I&nbsp;go crazy.&nbsp; Not enough pay and it is way too unfair.</li><li>I wish I&nbsp;had more motivation to get in shape, but I appear to lack will power.</li><li>I&nbsp;enjoy Lady Gaga.</li><li>I need to leave this city, this province and this country for a little while, to clear my head.</li><li>I make really stupid decisions all the time.</li><li>I love Neil Gaiman.</li><li>I love Amanda Palmer.</li><li>I wish I knew a matrial art. Seems like something I should be doing.</li><li>I have commitment issues nowadays.</li><li>My cat is pretty much my child, I would do anything for her.</li><li>I am getting up early to go see Jonathan when he gets off work at 7am.</li><li>I am not sure what else to say.</li></ul> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:29139 2008-05-02T19:31:13Z 2008-05-02T19:31:13Z . . .2011 can not come soon enough. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:28868 2008-04-30T13:09:43Z 2008-04-30T13:09:43Z I just had surgery on both of my feet yesterday. There was a lot of scraping and cutting. I am stuck in bed and in a lot of pain. The hospital didn't give me anything for the pain, so this sucks. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:28596 2008-04-19T22:53:01Z 2008-04-19T22:53:01Z So this is day 2, it has been pretty sweet. Today was the shopping day of the trip. We walked for about 7 hours already today and bought stuff such as bigger luggage to carry the stuff we bought and Nick got a new coat. Also I bought birthday gifts for people and Chiodos tickets (who will be playing with Protest The Hero and From First To Last). So that should be pretty cool. <br />I do enjoy the subway system here. It is really easy to navigate and a really quick way to get around town and it is very affordable. I wish Halifax had something like this but then again Hali isnt as big as Montreal. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:28173 2008-04-18T22:32:37Z 2008-04-18T22:32:37Z So here I am in Montreal. The plane ride was okay, I slept most of it away (getting up at 4 in the morning wasnt fun).<br />Our hotel is pretty sweet and it has a gacuzzi tub, which is awesome.<br />We werent even on the streets for 5 minutes when a drunk man (at 12 noon) came stumbling about and started peeing on a building. <br />While I was eating lunch, we saw a man who had just recently shat his pants, it was quite messy.<br />We took the subway around and ended up on the wrong side of the tracks (lol) then we came home. I am thinking that we may go see Forbidden Kingdom tonight. Hopefully it will be in English. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:28076 2008-03-25T18:00:58Z 2008-03-25T18:00:58Z I follow the night<br />Can't stand the light<br />When will I begin<br />To live again?<br /><br />One day I'll fly away<br />Leave all this to yesterday<br />What more could your Love do for me?<br />When will Love be through with me?<br /><br />Why live life from dream to dream?<br />And dread the day when dreaming ends<br /><br />One day I'll fly away<br />Leave all this to yesterday<br />Why live life from dream to dream?<br />And dread the day when dreaming ends<br /><br />One day I'll fly away<br />Fly, fly away<br /><br /><br />&lt;3 Moulin Rouge urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:27672 2008-03-18T19:11:35Z 2008-03-18T19:11:35Z And life takes another turn for the worst. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:27635 2008-03-05T16:15:34Z 2008-03-05T16:15:34Z Another day off work (aka called in sick). I dont like this job and I think I need a new one. Anyone have any ideas? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:27138 2008-02-27T01:03:17Z 2008-02-27T01:03:17Z XOX/OOX/XXO (We Will Never Win)<br /><br />We were the greatest,<br />The last-long war heroes,<br />We stepped about the rest,<br />And absolved all fear, oh, <br />Where did it go? Oh,<br />Where did it go?<br /><br />Tumbling down rabbit holes, <br />And escaping the realities, <br />We were blessed in some holy light, <br />Life long self casualties.<br />Where did I go? Oh,<br />Where did we go?<br /><br />Now were trapped between,<br />These X’s and O’s,<br />Round and round, round about, <br />Who’s going to notice us?<br />I make my move, <br />And you slightly grin, <br />This is the match, <br />That we will never win?<br /><br />We gather around aimless, <br />And we yell silently, <br />Spit out our shameless, <br />And think violently, <br />The matches continue, <br />Though no one has scored, <br />We fell too far under, <br />We’re so overboard.<br /><br />And you call me scavenger, <br />A whore for the masses, <br />And I call you stupid, <br />With breaths between glasses, <br />I storm out angry,<br />The rain won’t decrease, <br />You drive home, down-poured, <br />The sun is deceased.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />The night changes, <br />Rearranges, <br />Attitude spoken, <br />Silences broken.<br /><br />Now were trapped between,<br />These X’s and O’s,<br />Round and round, round about, <br />Who’s going to notice us?<br />You make your move, <br />And I slightly grin, <br />This is the match, <br />That we will never win?<br /><br />You gave me this tic, <br />I sat down your tac, <br />My toe is one step ahead, <br />Will I ever come back?<br />The answer is shrouded, <br />Among puzzled squares, <br />X marks your spot, <br />O, how I’ve been there.<br /><br />The war is now over, <br />Goodbye, sticks and stones, <br />We walk amongst strangers, <br />On our way home, <br />Our opposite ways, <br />Stretch on for days, <br />Oh, where did it go? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:27038 2008-02-27T00:45:09Z 2008-02-27T00:45:09Z Leave me a comment (anonymous or not) with one or more:<br /><br />- a secret<br />- a criticism<br />- a crush<br />- a compliment<br />- a love note<br />- a song<br />- a picture<br />- a political statement<br />- a death threat<br />- pretty much anything you want urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:26735 2008-02-14T01:18:28Z 2008-02-14T01:18:28Z Oh life, why do I hate you sometimes. I didn't go to work today and it was joyous. I have no motivation anymore to really do anything. <br />I unsure about a lot of things lately. I just kinda wanna curl up and die. Not to be confused with "Curl Up and Dye" the hair salon (if it actually exists)<br /><br />But on a darker note. Life is bad right now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:26548 2008-02-10T22:10:13Z 2008-02-10T22:10:13Z The Serpentine Offering - Dimmu Borgir So I am angry enough to kill right now. I do not like when people touch my things let alone take them. I did my laundry at Nick's the other day and well now it is gone. Some of my pants, most of my shirts and all of my towels. Next pay check is going to have to be spent on new clothes. GRR! If I ever get whiff of who took my clothes I will rip them to shreds (the people not my clothes).<br /><br /><br />On a lighter note, people should come get shitfaced here on the weekends more often. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:26200 2008-02-08T01:43:46Z 2008-02-08T01:43:46Z Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo<br /><br />Training at Convergys. . .is like being in highschool again. Kinda sucks but I am getting pretty okay. I havent really learned much that isnt already common sense. <br /><br />Day 1: We did nothing. I felt awkward and drank a lot of water. I almost fell asleep.<br /><br />Day 2: We did some stuff. I read a lot. Almost fell asleep.<br /><br />Day 3: We made posters. . . 2 of em. I almost fell asleep.<br /><br />Day 4: We did a scavenger hunt. I almost fell asleep. I read a lot more.<br /><br />Next week is pay week. . . I cannot wait... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:26093 2008-02-04T01:49:39Z 2008-02-04T01:49:39Z Today was a good day. I went out with Nick for dinner to ESM and then went to see The Eye. I bought a few new things which include: A cd player for the shower, a new shower head ( I like showers) and 3 books. <br /><br />Heroes: Saving Charlie (yeah, I'm obsessed)<br />Cell by Stephen King<br />Fragile Things by Neil Gaiman <br /><br />I start training tomorrow, I am kinda excited . . . kinda not. Oh Convergys what will you do to me?<br /><br />I have to jet now. <br /><br />Oh and if you want to comment please make a little relevant and actual words. Kinda annoys me when it isn't...unless it is funneh, urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:25685 2008-01-31T03:54:09Z 2008-01-31T03:54:09Z Well, life has been weird lately.<br /><br />I walked out of my job, quitting while doing so because I just got so fed up with it. They are closing tomorrow anyway. All I can say is good riddance (and I'm not the only one). <br /><br />I start Convergys on Monday. This should be a experience. <br /><br />Friends. What can I say? I feel like I am losing some and I feel like I am getting closer to others. I wish certain ones were around more and I wish some would just open their eyes. <br /><br />The apartment is going better than I thought. <br /><br />I feel meh. My body hates me and so does the hospital.<br /><br />Things are too weird O.O urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:25555 2008-01-14T16:58:12Z 2008-01-14T16:58:12Z So I'm all moved in, I need to buy a few things first but yeah. People will have to come see the place (and bring house-warming gifts .. j/k . . .unless you want to.) But yeah. . . do come. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:25292 2007-11-30T16:35:37Z 2007-11-30T16:35:37Z BLEH<br />I had to get up early today, I work late tonight, Exam tomorrow morning. <br /><br /><br />Lately, everything has been falling apart. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:24993 2007-09-07T01:47:03Z 2007-09-07T01:47:03Z Gathering Fingers - Stolen Babies OMFG Ryan is posting (something that hasnt been done in a long time)<br /><br />So I started my first day at DAL today. I am quite pleased, both of my classes were in the same place and the profs seem pretty awesome. I didnt meet any new people really. I also didnt move around that much, with all the pain and what not, I just wanted to get home. <br /><br />I only applied for a student loan recently, so I have not the money for certain things like books. Which I really need, so I will have to find a way to get those. <br /><br />I only have two classes tomorrow, still have to figure out how to get to them though. But things are going nice, I am pleased. <br /><br />I also need a job.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:24618 2007-03-07T02:48:00Z 2007-03-07T02:48:00Z These are not words, they're only feelings<br />There are no sounds that you can hear<br />There is no form that you can touch<br />There are no colors for you to see<br /><br />The only sound is a distant thunder<br />A tempest rages so far away from me<br />I walked for miles and I started running<br />Towards the sound and storm where you might find me<br />Towards the sound and storm where you might find me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:24429 2007-03-06T22:22:55Z 2007-03-06T22:22:55Z Life hurts urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:24253 2007-03-03T12:56:07Z 2007-03-03T14:28:25Z 1. Put your playlist on random.<br />2. Post the first line from the first 20<br />3. Delete the songs when someone guesses correctly.(<br /><br />1)The hunger inside, given to me, makes me what I am.<br />2)Flash my face, no intro needed.<br /><br />4)In your room,where time stands still.<br />5)People are stranger, when you're stranger.<br />6)Let not your hold be so tight, she'll return in the morning if you give her the night.<br />7)You can do something, read between the lines, Strong, painful, honest.<br />8)We meet just past sundown, hands clenched, tempers flared.<br />9)Watch the stars turn to nothing, now flush and smile as they whisk you away.<br />10)What becomes a legend most, I'll let you think about, space ghost coast to coast.<br />11)Let me introduce myself, incase we never met.<br />12)Still feel the cold, of long passed days.<br />13)The tragic comedy divine, paints the way to peace of mind.<br />14)Snuffed tapers sighed as death left impressing<br />15)Get the rope, tie me to the bedposts.<br />16)She's the month of June, a summer's tune.<br />17)Born from silence, silence full of it.<br />18)Gather round to hear this tale, a story which has grown old.<br />19)Every night wish my star friends, we eat cavier and drink champagne urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:23982 2007-01-01T02:46:34Z 2007-01-01T02:46:34Z I hate people urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forfeit_phantom:23592 2006-12-29T02:06:46Z 2006-12-29T02:06:46Z Christmas wasnt so bad, I am very pleased.<br />Things I got:<br /><br />Books: Eldest (special edition)- Legal Drug #2 - Gravitation #12 - Silverwing - Sunwing - Firewing - The Mensturating Mall<br /><br />Cds: The Dresden Dolls - Yes, Virgina - Stone Sour - Come What(ever) May - Children of Bodom - Are You Dead Yet? - Cradle of Filth - Thornography - Lamb of God - Sacrament - I Hate Sally - Don't Worry Lady - Jakalope - Born4<br /><br />Games: Final Fantasy XII - Shadow Hearts - Devil May Cry (From me)<br /><br />Movies: Ghost Ship - Gothika - Halloween 2 - House of Wax - House on Haunted Hill - Jeepers Creepers 2 - Queen of the Damned - The Sixth Sense - Thirteen Ghosts - The Fog - Moulan Rouge<br /><br />Misc Stuff: T.V. - Stereo - Chocolates - Bathbombs - Spiderweb Candle Holder - Final Fantasy XIII poster - a painting - shirts - coat - Calvin Klein cologne - System of a down patch - pin - Bullet Belt - Boots - gloves.<br /><br />I GOT A KITTEN AND KITTEN ACCESSORIES<br /><br />Nick got me a spikey pokey pizza cutter thing used for sexual purposes.<br /><br />If I forgot anything tell me.